Reflection

It's time to reflect over the past 6 months. Yesterday was my surgerversary(surgery anniversary), 6 months ago yesterday I was at the hospital. I believe I was in surgery at this time of the morning but then again who knows. It was all a little blurry that day.

According to my dietician...I'm behind in my weight loss. I'm not really worried about that because I'm not losing super fast, which in my opinion is good. I'm also not losing super slow. I'm good with that. I'm only 35 pounds from my doctor's goal weight! Which is so exciting for me. My goal weight is a little lower than his. I'm thinking about 140 for me. Still, I'm only 55 pounds from my goal. That probably sounds like a huge amount to you reading this but I've already lost 114 pounds. That's a WHOLE person! I've lost a whole person and I don't miss her a bit, LOL.

The Pros of my surgery:
1. I've lost a person
2. I have more energy
3. I feel like a new person(Less pain)
4. Sleeping so much better
5. Close to coming off my CPAP machine
6. No more diabetes medicine(insulin shots and metformin)
7. Cholesterol is spot on
8. A1C is down to a 4.9
9. Shopping in the regular size clothing stores
10.

Cons
1. Sometimes I feel like people watch me eat
2. The attention
3. Not being thirsty, ever. Except as soon as I sit down to eat
4. No ice cream
5. Dumping
6. The random pains
7. Not being able to eat what I want lol
8. The looks and comments when I say I had gastric bypass. (bite me)

With that being said...the pros way OUTWEIGH the cons(see what I did there).

"The Road May Be Bumpy But Stay Committed To The Process"

What Am I Doing? I've slipped into a daily life of screwing up!

No one is perfect.

We all fall but it's if, when and how we get back up and make changes.

So here's my fall. 

Since Thanksgiving, I've had a bad habit of snacking between meals. I've also been eating sweets.

I've not been doing my protein like I should. I've not been measuring my food. 

I've had pie, cookies, cake, candy. Crackers....for some reason I love crackers now. I've just plain gotten lazy and stupid! Back to basics!

This all being said it's time to make a change. 

Don't get me wrong...I AM proud of what I have been able to accomplish since my surgery. Actually since January of 2018. I've lost over 100 pounds and still losing. I'm below 200 pounds, in a size L to XL shirt, 14-16 jeans. I use to wear 26/28 shirts and pants. But I'd weigh less if I would get my self together and stop screwing up!

It's time to start doing my food diaries again. Exercising. Eating right! Taking my vitamins like I should. Walking.

Ginger Snaps are the devil and they are just as bad as the devil as they continue to tempt me at all times. Ugh! Chocolate used to be my weakness. Now not so much. There's a plus!

Time to get my weight priorities in order!

"The Struggle You Are In Today Is Developing The Strength You Need for Tomorrow"